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Funny

Isn't it?

How years go by, bye-bye, by and by.

Words, I use them to translate thoughts into tiny little bytes of information. Bites. Oreos.

How, like the wind, my mind goes. Free, fleeting, free.


Kneel before God, no longer in capital form. god.
Skeptical, unsure
Agnostic teetering on Atheism.

Ever worried that parents, oh mother and father, mommy and daddy, will notice that look in my eye when I pray at the dinner table. My mind prances from blasphemy to blasphemy, but really, what I now believe are truths.

Incoherence and inadequacy proven in my inability to complete a test with full certainty -
And now I float back to my saving grace, my northern star, my personal yes-man,
Ninety Six, and a Half.

Wonder, how wondrous a number below yet close to a 100 can be. Such joyous exuberance now, as I type bytes into a screen.



"If I die, I die."
"And I am in pain"

Scoff at my own melancholy. Troubles in a far more troubled world.

Who can give time to these - but me?

Troubles, troubled.
Struggle through trudging time,
cope with each puff of procrastination
numbs the pain of time

False smiles and misunderstood intentions
I do not know

Smile anyway
Hope, hoping to be funny so people don't see what's not that funny.

Catharsis, homeostasis, car's chassis, stasis.

Quell now, mind.
Imagine the shame you feel in a few years

I imagine it, an image I believe I will be familiar with -
Hopefully your use of the English language is far greater/superior (?) and lacking grammatical errors such as this.
You look back at this and feel better, because you are not as sad and confused as I am, who uses melancholy and might as fragile shields that don't work anyway.

18/10/15

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