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Craig Sager's Suits

Bold and colourful,
yet smooth and coordinated
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followed his passions,
greeted the world with a smile,
treated everyone like a friend,
and he did it all while refusing to blend in.

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with a crooked smile I go,
crooked smiles I love,
but I hate my own.

I give the world a minimum curve,
not unlike a cricket paralympian bowling with a pair of bowls, la.

ugh.

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You made me happy
so you deserve the best

but what I give is crooked and therefore, cannot be.

You give it to me and I receive it readily
But I cannot bear to part with this disfigured gift.

So I hide my teeth, I hide myself,
behind this little curve that I hope accurately captures the joy you make me feel.
And everyday I hope for braces,
and everyday I tell myself I can live with it,
and everyday I wake up in the morning and I fail,

and I fail and fail and fail again
to follow Sager's footsteps.
I fail to remember that it is us who are sometimes our own worst critics.

And that being flawed everyday is a staple of life,
so I should love it as I love rice.
To force myself wouldn't be disingenuous, well,
because,
who else is there to love,
but me?
me first,
me always first,
me always before you put the mask on the child.

me first,
save me first.
Save,
me save me first.

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how to be a colourful rainbow
how to greet people with a smile
how to talk less, listen more
how to be less boring
more enchanting
less pretentious
more genuine
how to devote myself completely to people
how to trust
how to love
how to be friends.
how can?

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How do I match yellow with beige and grey? And purple?

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